cultivating & crashing

an organic collection of notes, observations, and thoughts


I have never watched the Olympics and never felt I was missing anything. But today I somehow saw one clip of a paralimpics race and, two hours later, I have run the gamut of intense emotions: awed, humbled, elated, moved to the point of sloppy, hot, free-flowing tears. Such an incredible sight to see mortals push the limits of their bodies and their minds when half of their limbs are missing or paralyzed. How radiant is the flash of determination and focus in these weathered, beautiful faces. How refreshing to see in physical form what we all are inside: different shapes and abilities, and making clever modifications and almost superhuman efforts to strive toward a common goal.

Here is a video of some of the most badass women I will ever see in my life. I am grateful to be able to see what they do, to be able to hold them up as role models. I hope to remember these incredible women the every time I feel limited by myself or my circumstances.

Thai basil chicken

  1. Buy thai basil, fresh chilies, and garlic to replace the head of it you’re about to use up
  2. Make thai basil chicken

Deep frying an egg is easier and more fun than I anticipated.

How to stats right

This article in PLOS just became my blueprint for learning after I finish this Master’s. I want to spend as much time as I can learning how to do proper data analysis (both the stats as well as the process) so that I have the skills for when I start looking for jobs because, ultimately, I want to get paid to read, analyze, and interpret numbers.

So I’m adding some items to my technical wishlist:

  1. Github for version control
  2. R Markdown
  3. knitr

Wish me luck!

wishlist 2016





seguir política latinoamericana

D3.js or sick ggplot2

Edit: bash for piping R into Python or D3.js

Edit 2: pagar dos préstamos más chicos



Today I completed all the tests on this website. I made an account, so I look forward to seeing how things (my feelings, my relationships) develop over time.

I got it from this article on attachment by Bethany Saltman. Like her,  I am worried that I’ve inherited a bad attachment style from my parents, especially my dad, but heartened by the possibility that self-awareness and reflexiveness can counter harmful ways of dealing with our children. Hope I have the wherewithal to learn what I wasn’t given in time.

12-hr bread

Mike likes this bread, but does not care for the rosemary, which to him taste like “dried flowers”.

Swiped from elsewhere on the Internet. Posting the recipe here because the original is at the bottom of a very image-heavy page about a Creuset giveaway.

•    3 cups all purpose flour
•    1 3/4 tsp sea salt
•    1/2 tsp active dry yeast
•    11/2 cups room temperature water
•    3/4 cup chopped fresh rosemary

1.    In a large bowl mix flour, sea salt, rosemary and yeast together. Mix in the water and use a spatula to blend until well combined.
2.    Cover the bowl and allow to sit on the counter overnight, at least 12 hours.
3.    Preheat oven to 450 F degrees. While oven is heating, place your Dutch Oven in the oven to allow it to preheat as well.
4.    Remove pot from oven and remove the lid from it.
5.    Flour your work surface as well as hands. Remove your dough from the bowl and form into a ball. This is a no knead recipe, but you may have to fold it a couple times to get it to form the shape you want. Place the dough into the bottom of your Dutch Oven without burning your hands.
6.    Bake for 30 minutes with the lid on, then remove the lid and bake another 15-20 minutes until the bread is golden brown.
7.    Remove from the oven and allow to cool.

Rhubarb compote

Got rhubarb from Longview, didn’t know what to do. Whenever you face a new obstacle in life, ask Martha Stewart.


  • 1 3/4 pounds rhubarb, ends trimmed, cut crosswise into 3/4-inch pieces (about 6 cups)
  • 1 cup sugar
  • 1 piece (1 inch) fresh peeled ginger, finely grated

  1. Stir together rhubarb and sugar in a large saucepan (off heat); let stand until rhubarb releases some liquid, about 10 minutes.

  2. Bring rhubarb mixture to a boil over medium-high heat, stirring occasionally. Reduce heat; simmer, stirring occasionally, until rhubarb has broken down but some whole pieces remain, about 5 minutes. Remove from heat.

  3. Place ginger in a fine-mesh sieve set over a small bowl. Press down firmly with a spoon until juices are released (to yield about 1 teaspoon). Discard solids. Stir ginger juice into rhubarb mixture.

  4. Let sauce cool completely before serving over ice cream, yogurt, or pound cake, or using to make parfaits.


Celebrating and fighting

It’s about LGBTQ rights but applies to every struggle, every life lived in pursuit of a better world.

We celebrate, and we fight on. It’s half-full, and it’s half-empty. It’s a half-changed world.

Idit Klein


Motivation for better habits comes from self-compassion. Take out the emotional aspect, focus on problem-solving. If messed up, don’t beat yourself up and instead figure out why and figure out how to avoid that in the future.


L’intelligence ce n’est pas ce que l’on sait, mais ce que l’on fait quand on ne sait pas.

Jean Piaget


Lest our measurements of intelligence be confounded by knowledge!

I find this really interesting, because he is not stating what he would consider intelligent to do. Strict epi would have you say you don’t know and back away from the problem, but we need to make decisions all the time for problems on which we don’t have data. So does that mean prudence or daring?


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