cultivating & crashing

an organic collection of notes, observations, and thoughts

Music to fill mindlessness

I’ve just begun the very tedious and mindless part of a systematic review: the first screening, in which I determine which of the 3632 references I’ve collected have anything to do with the topic I’m looking at (diabetes, depression, and cognitive decline). So music returns to my life.

Things I’m listening to when I want to forget what I’m doing:
Lila Downs
TYP – Meshuga
Calle 13
Major Lazer (which even my little siblings know now!)
Old tango
A Tribe Called Red (especially “Sisters”)
Chet Faker

The Palestinian People: A History

The Palestinian poet Mahmud Darwish saw a powerful symbiosis linking Palestinian and Israeli, Arab and Jew. There will be a time, he wrote, when

the Jew will not be ashamed to find the Arab part inside of himself, and the Arab will not be ashamed to declare that he is constituted also by Jewish elements. Especially when talking about Eretz Yisrael in Hebrew and Falestin in Arabic. I am a product of all the cultures that have passed through this land—Greek, Roman, Persian, Jewish, and Ottoman. A presence that exists even in my language. Each culture fortified itself, passed on, and left something. I am a son to all those fathers, but I belong to one mother. Does that mean my mother is a whore? My mother is this land that absorbed us all, was a witness and was a victim. I am also born of the Jewish culture that was in Palestine…

Baruch Kimmerling, Joel S. Migdal
The Palestinian People: A History

Notes from The Palestinian People: A History

The new Palestine Authority that came out of the Oslo process led some Arabs in Israel to shy away from too strong an identification with the new Palestinian regime. In fact, the degree of their identification with the Israeli state actually appeared to grow as it become apparent that basic human rights suffered under the rule of the Palestinian Authority. When rumors surfaced toward the end of the Oslo process in 2000 about a possible land swap between Israel and a new Palestinian state, Israel’s Arabs expressed overwhelming opposition to their own towns being included in the trade.

Baruch Kimmerling, Joel S. Migdal
The Palestinian People: A History
Odd Man Out: Arabs in Israel

I had heard this but not really believed it. This is huge! Also, prior to reading this book I didn’t realize Arab Israelis were so different from Palestinians living in the occupied territories, but now I realize there are huge differences. For instance, they didn’t participate in the Intifadas.

From the same chapter:

The Arab citizens of Israel have sat in a vortex of cross-pressures, and, not surprisingly, they have responded to their dilemma with seemingly contradictory views and actions. They have continued to recognize the legitimacy of Israel in overwhelming numbers (in a 2001 survey, over 50 percent answered “yes” and another 33.7 percent answered “yes with reservations” to a question asking about their support for Israel’s existence). Those numbers were only a slight decline from the 93.3 percent total in 1995. They have seen their futures as being in Israel, not in a Palestinian state. Over three-quarters in the 2001 survey said they wanted to continue to be citizens of Israel. As one Israeli Palestinian researcher concluded, “They see their place, future, and organizational situation, as well as the bodies that represent them, as distinct from those of the Palestinians in the West Bank, Gaza Strip, and diaspora. This means that the Palestinians in Israel see themselves as Israeli citizens who will continue to live in the country and are not willing to move to another country, not even to a Palestinian state in the West Bank and Gaza Strip.”

The unique Arab culture that formed in Israel has been different from the general Palestinian culture, but it also has been part of it. Palestinian national culture has struggled since the late 1980s with the question of Jewish rights, especially exclusive rights, over land in Palestine. To that struggle, the Palestinian citizens of Israel have brought a deep understanding of the complexity of relations between the two peoples. They have recognized the heterogeneity and variety of cultures in Israel and have shied away from the practice in many Arab countries and other Palestinian communities of demonizing the state or the Jews. As the odd man out, the Palestinian citizens of Israel hold the promise of a new bridge to the future.

And a factoid: there were 1.3 million Palestinians in Palestine before the ’48 war, more than 50% of which wound up in the West Bank after the war.

I’m almost done with the book and I’m really impressed by how unflinchingly it depicted the atrocities committed on both sides of the conflict, as well as the depth that it gives to the highly heterogeneous group that are the Palestinians. It was super informative and I’m glad I read it.

Ideas for research, ideas for life

Yesterday I went through some old papers and found a lot of stuff from 2007 to 2010, when I was trying to think about what I wanted to do in my studies and in my life. Fast forward to now, I’m having a conversation over WhatsApp with friends in Argentina about the concept of tikkun olam and thinking about possibly doing doctoral research on post-traumatic stress disorder and chronic illness in Israel and the Territories. The habits are the same; it’s only the topics that have changed.


Comment allez-vous honorer le corps qui vous appartient ?

I’m a bit weak on that point. I’d like to think I do a bit better in terms of honouring the mind I have.


Just discovered A-WA, and they’re fantastic.

Dror Etkes on the occupied territories

Dror Etkes of Peace Now:

[The] settlements in the occupied territories threaten our existence as a Jewish, democratic state, weaken the security of Israel, drain our economic resources, undermine our society’s moral fiber, and serve to perpetuate Israeli rule over another people in a way that prevents Israel from reaching peace with the Palestinians. The settlements today pose an existential threat to the future of Israel. Let me be very clear: it is in Israel’s own best interests to separate itself from settlements and the occupied territories that the settlers would have us bind to the state.

David W. Lesch
The Arab-Israeli Conflict: A History
pp. 377-8

The great dilemma: the option to unilaterally disengage produces the nightmare that is Gaza post 2005, but to continue to occupy continues an unjust, untenable, undemocratic, and severely depleting situation. So while the above statement resonates more readily with me, unfortunately I think it’s only a partial truth, and therefore not the clear and obvious solution I would like it to be.

Notes from Bad Science

Make kedgeree

Read about this intervention


noun, Computer Slang.
a software or hardware configuration that, while inelegant, inefficient, clumsy, or patched together, succeeds in solving a specific problem or performing a particular task.

Nullis in verba — On the word of no one
Royal Society’s motto

Munich 1972

The incident [Munich massacre] … launched an escalation in Israeli-Palestinian violence all over the world that over time only complicated the search for peace. Yet it is also a world in which former Zionist terrorists such as Menachem Begin and Yitzhak Shamir can become prime ministers, the former signing the first peace treaty between Israel and an Arab state, and one of the three Black September terrorists who survived Munich, Abu Da’ud, was allowed to enter Israel in 1996 in order to attend a PLO meeting in the Gaza Strip that convened to rescind an article in the PLO charter calling for Israel’s elimination.

David W. Lesch
The Arab-Israeli Conflict: A History
Chapter 8: The Road to 1979


“Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we must do.”



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